How Will It Feels?

I'm still wondering, how will it feels to have more than one child?
You see, I'm the only child in the family. The centre of attention, the centre of affection, the centre of love and care, the centre of almost everything in our little family. There's only me, my dad, and my mom. None to share the toys, the food, the ice cream, the chocolate...

Up till now, I'm still thinking that my child is Auliya, I don't have any idea wheather I can share my love to the other up coming children of ours. I hope I can, equally. I still have negative thinking that I won't be able to accept any child with their strength and weakness without comparing them with my beloved Auliya, who always be my pearl, my precious one. I always think that Auliya is my best, she's a fast learner, a cute babygirl, a smart one, and the perfect one.

Bismillah, may Alloh guide me to be the best mom for my children.